i find the difference between her and me.
she regards her small tanlent as very valuable, and doesn't throw away what she want to do
honestly, we didn't think that her talent is very special.
but she and our lord makes it very special.
but i always wait for the perfect chance,
i was just a coward boy who don't want to be treated as a failure.
my life was judged by other people.
i gave them steering wheel of my life, which depended on other's view
in my talent, if i wait for perfect chance, which must be very small, and not better than now
i should bet my future on portential.